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i am going brisbane next week!

i need neck pillow for my trip, any kind soul has it?

pls msg me if u want to buy any food like starburst etc

in relation to the last entry posted by xiaoqi,
i have also came across a registrar who proudly proclaimed to me that he loves
prescribing IS too.

this is what he said to me
" you know we do a lot of surgery here. in school, we learn that ALL patient who had an operation must be given an IS."

???
so u meant that baby should be given one too?

finally, i stopped shitting at 4pm this afternoon.

today, i came across this irritating young MO who does things without any clinical reasoning.

me: "hi dr goh, this is cindy, PT, calling from the rehab dpt regarding this 28 y.o man who substained a bilateral calcaneal fracture who is ordered for  FWB gait training now. may i know why WALKING FRAME is prescribed instead of axillary crutch?"
MO: "i don't know. this is the instruction from the consultant."
me: -.-""""

waa lau ehhh.

i am feeling a bit down because i feel that i am not doing the right thing and enough for my patient.

my TKR DM aunt is so nice.
her DM is giving lots of complications (neuropathies, delayed healing).
i have been trying to control the inflammation over the past few weeks.
i am so thankful that her knee is much less swollen after telling her to put on a tubigrip and doing cryotherapy regularly.

my dearest lateral release boy is currently having both fat pad impingement and PFPS.
i felt quite bad cause i only told him to do stretches and no manual release was given.
i just need more time.

but there are two good news
my bilateral ankle fracture aunties is doing quite well.
came in without walking aid already and her balance is not bad too.
but her dorsiflexion is quite bad and she still cannot manage big step.
i really hope the self mobilization i taught her will work (actually i tried it really do) because she need to climb a stool at work.
imagine being able to go up and not able to come down.

my debridement NSF came in without walking aid.
distraction of hip works like wonder for him man.
i was so elated when his range went from 90 to FROM.
amazing.
hope there will be a carried over effect.

alright, time to go back to more reading up.
o lord, thank you giving me strength.

i remember reading this joke about a man who went to see a counselor after having 7 failed marriages.

counselor: "so can you tell me what went wrong each marriage?"

so the man went on to blabber about each wife about how incompetent and incompatible each was.
each sentence were almost started with "she".

counselor:"do you know what they had in common?"

man continued to list out all their bad behaviours but the counselor stopped him.

counselor: "they all had a husband like you!"

you know, the problem about human nature is that we always either 1)blame other for our mishaps or 2)blame god for our misfortune.
you can argue that if it was not for so so and so, things would not have turn out this way. take me for as an example. i have a problem with getting bored half way through a movie and i always ended up either sleeping through it or click the stop button. anyway, it was a hot and humid sunday afternoon when both gj and i were hiding in his room watching IP man. as usually, i got bored of the fighting scenes while my gj was glued to his lap top screen. as expected,  i ended up grouchy and angry because i was kept unentertained for the past 1 hour. i got bitchy and started making sarcastic remarks which pissed him off and he shouted to me this "seriously, you need to change your bad attitude."

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, macham like lightning struck me sia, i was like lost for words for many many minutes.
i should not have blame gj. i could have brought something to his house to do and kept entertained but i chose to watch IP man when i know i would be bored.

so ladies and gentlemen, before you made those foolish remarks and starting disliking others, take a good look at yourself.

stop finding excuses why the people is so blah blah blah. perhaps, you're actually the one with a problem. so please detest yourself before
disliking others.

first of all,
i want to congratulate my baobei for meeting her stats because i understand how hard it is to provide quality care and managing time together.

i having been working officially for about 2 months.
it is an interesting job cause i get to meet different people and physio from other parts of the world.
i will be working till at least jan of next year and i will be flying off by late jan or early feb to do my degree conversion
as i mentioned previously, i am not pretty excited about it because my bf is not joining me.
sad to say, i i think i will really miss him but i know this is life (aiyo so cheesy and over-use).

anyway, it is time for me to go to bed.
my life sound mundane.
hee

i am not exactly excited about leaving next year

i think i have something against man.
i get extremely infuriated when they make not so tactful remarks.
i can evolve into a volcano if one really to question me.

i need to change.
stop being so bitchy cindy!!!!


anyway, i am on the self discovery to feel different end feel.
i have a complete ACL tear pt who has no end feel and it is VERY SCARY.
i have this frozen ah pek who is like darn stiff+++
hard end feel is like moving block.
muscle spasm is like bouncy end feel like an elastic band.
involuntary sudden guarding is like a flicker.

one word, FUN.

my dad plays a part in shaping me to be who i am now.

i strain my h/s during my first ever football game.
SO TAK GLAM!

i figure out that there is really no point arguing with you when you truly do not understand.

what do you mean by "those are really for one word replies"?
it is either you choose to sincerely reply or not.
i seriously cannot fathom why u initiated the conversation when you know you will be distracted

so please enlighten me

it is getting on my nerves.

why are guys so bloody wishy washy?
they take darn long to choose what to eat
they take darn long just to register for an event
they take darn long just to meet you.

super duper irritating.

i think it is time for me to start talk about my present life.
i started work on the 6.4.09 and i spent that entire week doing nothing related to physio.
it was funny cause elaine, who is my second biggest boss had orientation with us too!
she is nice lady, friendly and really funny ( apparently she told me that she secretly audited me like 3440065 times).

i started working earlier than my peers because my section head went on urgent medical leave.
working at ortho gym is quite challenging because time management is very important.
seeing 6 patients at the same time is no joke.
anyhow, i am still learning to feel different kind of end feels,body ergonomics, to prioritize my patient's problem list and of course to clinical reason.

i told my bf that i believe in life long learning because there are always things which we don't know and to improve on.
i guess this is reason why i can click with mr beng so well because we share the same mindset and personality.

anyway, i having my well deserve 2 weeks of orientation starting next week!
LOKIE and i will be going up and i really hope we can have lunchie at the same time.
hoho.

did i mention that this cute british boy join cgh?
haha.
lokie's eye candy for the time being.

god is the one who can judge us.

go read about susan boyle.

i thank god for his love.

we had a serious talk today.

i talked to him how i might not be able to be the one whom he wants as a wife and the fear of him leaving me
years later when this realization hits him.
i told him i do see him as my future husband but i do not know if he thinks i am good enough for him.

i on the verge of crying but i know i have to be strong.
i am glad that he said this "for now, i do think you're the one."
sweet but i know i should not take this as a promise.

i know whatever is going happen,
i still going to live my life to its fullest and believe and trust the almighty one up there.

thank you lord for answering my prayer.

ever since i came back from bintan, my emotions have been going up and down.
i guess it is the realization that i am starting work soon.

batam with him last week.
nothing special to mention about.
harris was under some major renovation which means no beaches.
dinner was nice cause the staffs separated us from the crowd and gave us some privacy.
the pool is the only thing which attracted him and i.
we ordered soft drinks (no alcohol due to my sandflies bites outbreak) using his dad's rupiah.

i have been spending lots of money health-related issues.
i bombed 53 bucks for my sandflies bites outbreak
i spent 20 bucks for my psychiatrist appointment today.
which mean i am like 73 dollars poorer and the numbers in my bank is going to be two digits soon.

thats the reason why i want to start work asap.

leonard ravenhill is one of the greatest evangelist i have been across for far.
his words is amazing and truthful.

Just this week I spoke with a big, strong professional football player who has now become a full-time evangelist...a very godly man. He broke into tears as he told me about the slander and deceit used against him among Christians. He said through his tears, "Mr. Ravenhill, I've suffered character assassination." I said, "Friend, you're under a delusion that most Christians are under. There's nobody that can assassinate your character. Character is what God knows you are. Reputation is what men think you are. They might have lied, wrecked your reputation, and made it almost impossible for you to get into other pulpits, but remember this" (as you read this, you remember it too): "The only one who can wreck your character is you. God doesn't listen to gossip except to judge it. The only one who can lower or higher you in the estimation of God is you by your obedience or by your disobedience."

how often are we not affected by people who make brainless comments?
how often are we not affected by worthless rumours?
how are we not affected by people who are not tactful?

to the non-believer, bible may seem to be irrelevant.
but i must say this, the bible is not only the holy words of god but a book of wisdom.
it taught me so many things life and not only how good god is.

the bible mentioned the tongues repeatedly and its vary forms.
apparently, there are more than 10 types of them.

today, i was confronted for a sin i did using this small little organ.
guilt, remorse, fear, anguish and shameful overwhelmed me.

i felt guilty and remorseful because i should think before i speak.
i am fearful because i didn't know what kind of trouble i have gotten into.
i felt angry because of how my friend judged me and i do know i can keep secrets.
i felt shameful because i have been struggling with this sin for so long yet i still cannot overcome the power to gossip, judge and badmouthed others.

god has forgiven my sin for umpteen times yet i still succumb to this sin.
i guess this holy trial really made me know where this big flaw can lead me to.
i want a change in me.

o lord, please help me.